- Oct 24, 1989
- United States
- Deviant for 16 years
- www.dearly-beloved.org
- She / Her
AIM: Hamharu
I was diagnosed with stage III Hodgkin's Lymphoma in October 2004. Seven years later I still have cancer but my life has been prolonged due to treatment and ultimately the grace of God. October 2006 the Lord Jesus opened my eyes and gave me a new heart with new desires, to abandon my old way of life in sin and start looking to Him. Ever since the day I truly became a Christian it has been nothing but struggle against the selfishness of sin. Everyday I stumble in some way but one thing I know: God is always with me.
"I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD" Psalm 27:13-14 ESV
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You cannot serve both God and money. (Luke 16:13)
Those who are in the flesh cannot please God. (Romans 8:8)
Do not turn aside after empty things that cannot profit or deliver. (1Sam 12:21)
Unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God. (John 3:3)
Anyone of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be My disciple. (Luke 14:33)
Why do you not understand what I say? It is because you cannot bear to hear My word. (John 8:43)
I'll be honest, will you? - "For we cannot but speak of what we have seen and heard." (Acts 4:20) Jesus said, "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." (Matt 11:28) You cannot save yourself.
www.illbehonest.com
Oct 27 marks 8 years of cancer
Profile Comments 819
Hmm.. I thought about writing here much earlier when I heard the news of your passing but never did. I never really knew you that well other than you were the owner of the HHK forums.
Although after reading the post from who I believe is damegraywolf? The one that contain an image from HHK forums, it really brought back some memories. You were really hostile during that time frame but anyone would've had a mental breakdown when they find out they have cancer at such a young age. Also, I don't recall you being like that in the beginning.
Anyway, thank you for creating the HHK forums and maintaining it for as long as you could. Before HHK, all the previous forums were very basic and they never lasted that long. When I first arrived to HHK from HHHQ, I was amazed how visually appealing it was at the time. It shows how passionate the creator was to take the time to make layouts like that.
I met some very important people in my life there, so it is still a good memory for me. The memory will still keep going for as long as I'll live and in a way I suppose you'll still be alive in that memory.
Rest in peace.
Missing you, and late happy birthday. I tried to remember but I've been busy.
Sorry Im late, I was very busy t.t
Late Happy Birthday... Missing you
Missing you still today
Not people actually missing someone who tried to drive a 12 year old to suicide, was a massive bigot and spiteful person, and believed in conversion therapy.
wait hol up, i only knew about haru because of the drama with ham-ham kingdom and the r/hobbydrama post compiling some of the things that happened due to archiving of the forums being piss poor. i'm not saying i don't believe you but if what you said is indeed true, was this shit posted to her dA and the forums or just dA or the forums.
The forums.
The suicide one, I wish I had screencapped / saved, but it was something she said in a private section for mods only. It was about IdleThreats , which heru hated for no forseeable reason. I might have a chat record of us talking about it. It was discovered after heru tried to bring back HHK due to an invisionfree big ass glitch that brought back the forums and ancient threads arranged in random places.
The bigotry and spite was on full display throughout the forums, Youtube, and sometimes here on her journals, especially towards the end. I DO have screencaps of one post where she calls being gay something to be cured and sinful and hateful, and is just generally bigoted towards other groups.
I've got only a few other receipts I think, I'd have to examine the old html files I have.
And as for conversion therapy, she has / had youtube videos saying g-d "cured" her of bisexuality and pushing people to do the same. And she's talked about it here on dA iirc